Shuddup And Listen.

ur name starts with a J.

2012-01-22T03:57:00.000+08:00

I dun have to say it. I know u hate me.I duno the reason. U're just being a jerk at this. What did I ever do to you that makes u treat me that way? If I'm really wrong then I say sorry first for being a jerk in the first place. But in many people's opinion, it was you who couldn't see the bright side and even dislike the wrong person.Sorry to say this but please lah...OPEN UR EYE A BIT CAN?

And if u think I'm mad and bullshitting all the time,then u're wrong.Because like you,I am a human.I have a right to be mad at this. Being rude is just as bad as hatting me. Oh~Dun get me wrong thou.I dun hate you.I dun hate anyone.U hate me first!Whoever told u I hate you wasn't correct.The person who listen to that person is even foolish. SO I must say,we're mature people already.Dun let other people ruin ur mind.U have ur own brain.Dun follow what others do.

and i tot u like to lead.If being a leader makes u follow people then sorry man,u're just not ORIGINAL!

and that concludes the night of the story about J.

CIAO!

vboy is home.

2012-01-21T03:03:00.000+08:00

whenever he comes home, i feel like a sense of certainty.like he knows what we need to do.he shares many experiences with me.he teaches me what to do and how to control my life.I suck at that part.haha.

and previously at uni,it was just me.I can't deal with all that stress and he was the one who can talk me out of it.but he couldn't with all that he is working on.my,my...whatever shall I do without him really.

I know I grow up already but without him with me,I'm half dead.Maybe that's why all woman needs a man in their life? To set control to them? Is that true?

I want to make my life as beautiful as possible.I've set goals of course.And I accomplished them.but...as I get older,those weren't the goals I wanted my life to be with.I don't want to have these memories with me.

Oh well,who says life can't be full of colour eh?hehe.

And I miss Prisca!Wherever she is...I miss her bad.I need her like water though.She was there for me during my rough times and I am just so damn sad I couldn't for her.She did all those things for me!And what did I do?NTH!God I love the way she tells me things.God,please bring her back.Or at least someone like her.Either like my brother or somehow.

I planned.I still have 5 sems to go.the last sem is industrial training so that leaves out 1 sem.so I have 4 sems.That means 2 years to go.When I came back for this holiday...I didn't want to go back.I hated there.The stress and all that.But its what makes me grow!

They hated me.Like what the hell?I'm KICKED OUT of the group because few of those din like me?fine.I have my life.I believe I can find someone way better.God,u know I can count on you.

Till then,
CIAO!

u're coming back today.

2012-01-18T03:01:00.001+08:00

i hate to say this but i always do.i want u so so bad.

i need someone to listen.to care.to feel how i feel.

dun tell me that meant nth to u?

truth?

2012-01-18T02:37:00.002+08:00

i want to shut down my blog so bad because I bitch about a lot of people.damn!God.please help me.should i shut it down?

Here Is Gone.

2012-01-15T14:31:00.001+08:00

The lyrics are amazing!It's so true and hardcore!

You and I got somethin
But it's all and then it's nuthin to me, yeah
And I got my defenses
When it comes through your intentions for me, yeah

And we wake up in the breakdown
With the things we never thought we could be, yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We got to move you darlin
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

I am no solution
To the sound of this pollution in me, yeah
And I was not the answer
So forget you ever thought it was me, yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We got to move you darlin
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

And I dont need the fallout
Of all the past that's in between us
And I'm not holding on
And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
And I can feel you falling

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah

yeah,i did.

2012-01-15T14:22:00.000+08:00

we kissed

....in a dare

on Christmas day.

you look at me.

with your eyes.

you were so far away.

one goal down.

The Goo Goo Dolls - Home (official video)

2012-01-15T14:17:00.000+08:00

Crowded rooms full of empty faces
Our deepest conversation full of lies
Another night with all my friends
The kind you'll never see again
I wonder if they'll see through my disguise

Come take me home.

Tonight.

and maybe,just maybe.

2012-01-15T14:14:00.000+08:00

the world wasn't clear of what I want.what i wanted was a beautiful life.beautiful memories.i blame God for each of the memories I didn't have.

Mum told me.Once she got older.She forgot everything.She forgot what song she sang that made her win that competition.She forgot what she wore that made her look like a star.She forgot the day that she screamed at her sister and probably hold a knife towards her so that she stop touching her stuff.my mum.my hero.

so i look back.and it doesn't matter to me anymore.because as often as I would.I will forget.In time,all I have is my blog.my diary.well,i don't basically keep everything in my blog though.there is still something private.

there are haters on my blog.and as much as I would ask them to leave.they are never going to.so hello life.this is my new start. =)

CIAO!

my november for 2011

2012-01-12T01:21:00.000+08:00

Hello mates!!!Long time no update!Ok..i know...I know...it's too late to apologize!but it's better to have freedom now.I mean,i can't be updating my blog when I'm at school library and let evry1 stare at wad i wrote rite?So yeah...it does matter to me if i have freedom or not.hehe.

Alrite!so I went to Keningau...LAST YEAR! XD and got to see Rafflesia!My gawd!It was amazing!So i went to crocker ranch.It's sth like Genting but...it's all about nature!not casinos and stuff...yeah u get the deal!So here are the pics!!!CHECK IT OUT!~

left or right?

my darling! XD

me and pals...

me!

meet Peter and Sylvia!

yes yes...camwhoring! XD

跺在树后面...

yes...apparently we got very addicted to the NASI LEMAK movie...

orange!

that's carrie btw! ^^

oh...erm...this is...

ok...let me give u a clue...

what would u call a blue bird in HOKKIEN?

YEAP!U get it! XD

meet chie yang!

nice eh?

go class ah?

phua chu kang boots!

the nature centre!

can u see them?XD

don't let me go!

holla!

me and my pals!

love this pic!

BAHAHAHA!

these two.. XD

so when guys lie down on the floor...

sth like this will happen...

but they still get normal about it? O.o

monkey see fruit...monkey wants fruit!

monkey got fruit!

omg!the hotel was amazing!

i got this for rm80!nice?

eat!

kam pua mee!

cow cow!

tee hee!

river...

lambs!!

baby cow likes licking ass! XD

ma hotel!

yummy~

before...

after...

bo liao!

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMM SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENNNNGGGGGGGG!!

the ONE on the front was fake. XD

Kari and me! XD

ice-creaming!

omg...wad is he doing in our room??!

our room in KK!

awesome awesome awesome!

the bathroom is...seethrough! XD

HAWT!

cutest ever!

it's new!

chinese vs. english!

SURIA SABAH!

sth sth sth temayaki?

err.....?

SALMON!!!!

HEAVEN!

O.O

SALMON SKIN!!!!

habis dah!

eh...dun lidat leh..

rows and rows of...

breakfast!

LAKSA!

CENTER POINT!

ice-cream and me!

cute eh?

it cost me rm5 only to get into this cinema!OMG!

my partners!

and me of course!

rm5 too! ^^

Sabah...SEAFOOD HEAVEN!

they serve awesome seafood man!

the one in pink is also MANDY! XD

nice eh?

yeap...after eat..go back!

got this jacket so i tried it out..

and its....omg!

how can u NOT come here? XD

when i see this pic...i'm reli sad...

cause...I LOST THIS SHIRT!

thk god i took many pics of it!

and so I transform!

there we go...

this is the most awesome western restaurant ever!!!!

it's UPPERSTAR!

I love die this chicken!

the art of the restaurant!

the food is damn amazing!

oops!HAPI BDAY!

US!

ok...so i went to a club....called.. BED! XD

and its awesome~!

in the ferry and back to Labuan..

SO how was it? =D

will update more stuff next time!

till then..CIAO!

Introducing ME!

2011-12-12T23:26:00.000+08:00

Cut my hair again.

Yeap.Another haircut u say? Well, the old one really looks bad on me.I need a rocker look and that means LAYERS LAYERS LAYERS!

And now I'm stuck between emo and lonely. I can't bother any of it becuz I'm having the best nights with these people. I haven't had that in a long time.

I'm happy because I'm done with the stupid ASSignment given.

I love how my friend cooks green beans soup with little round jellies in them.

I love sitting there and thinking about home. I would sometimes smile at the times I laughed and sang so loud in my house and now I have to be a mouse so that I dun irritate my roommate.

I love looking at the ALPHAS! *WINK WINK*

I love Paris!I love French!

My deepest darkest secret is that I Love Myself! =D

I have a crush on Batman!

ok fine!I'm in love with Batman!THERE!

wait...I think I've mention this before.

Did I?

See?Stupid brain that can't store memories!

ok...moving on....

I love to write blogs because I just love to.I love to put my thoughts in a page and let someone read it.And then when they read it they understand how I feel.But the thing is those people will never understand how I feel because a person can change, everyday. Don't expect them to be a bad person forever. There is always a good side in a person.

I believe love last forever. Love does not go away. When it comes, it leaves a mark. When it goes, it leaves a scar.

I hate it when a guy doesn't even TRY to be a gentleman!

ok...tat's all....wana know more abt me? READ ON! XD

CIAO! ^^

Fly with me.

2011-12-08T02:37:00.000+08:00

As I sit here in menara, again, I feel like life isn't that easy. Life has passed like lightning speed. I have been doing ASSignments like I have no life at all.I haven't been putting my studies forward. Well, not now actually...cuz I'm kinda lazy and when u have a heavy rock on ur shoulder and then u finally get it off, u dun exactly wana put that rock on your shoulder again is it? YEap!Tat's wad I tot.

ok...gtg back to room and just...idk?sleep? XD

CIAO!

If I'm your friend,is this how u are supposed to treat me?

2011-11-29T09:27:00.000+08:00

Yeah.I guess I'm just bug out.I will forgive and forget but will they? God,u know I love you.I don't want to think so much about life anymore but it concerns me.It brings me back to that place. ugghhhh...

alrite.Priz is gonna open a new blog!Cnt wait to see it! ^^

CIAO!

freakin' psssssttt

2011-11-28T00:19:00.001+08:00

i gotta get it out of my system.I hate when people throws me aside and leave me like that!Who do u think u are?Yes.I am alone.Are you all happy?When someone asked me why am I alone,you have no idea how bad I wanted to hug them and cry!I never knew that people could be so mean!

I know..I know u all like to please her la!Go ahead lah!If she really is that GOOD to u all,go lah!I know she cooks for u ma.She plays with u ma..But wad abt me?What did I fucking do wrong in the first place?

And yeah.I know some of u hates me a lot.I know.The thing is..I dun understand why.If I really did sth to make u sad,u tell me la.I will kneel down and apologize if it is really my fault lo!

When u all make my life so miserable,u all are very happy right?Then,I hope u all are.I don't want u all not to be.If I really make u all that unhappy then I leave la,ok?Then she will be happier le.Cuz she can have u all as her pets.

No.I'm not jealous at all.I just duno what u guys see in her.That's all. =)

I hope it doesn't affect our school assignments.But how cum she never does anythg and u all still like her?And that I do EVRYTHG and u all leave me alone?WHY GOD?Maybe they are jerks?Maybe,just maybe I dun deserve to have good friends?

Heed my lecture u whore!GO FUCK URSELF!

Love.

2011-11-24T11:24:00.001+08:00

oh no...I'm not in love!But my schoolmates are!AWW!DAMN CUTE!

Its really nice to know people are being very positive about this. =)

and most of all...I closer to home each day!SO happy to gonna be back to see my parents! ^^

orite!this will be just a current update.c ya later Mambos! =D

CIAO!

How my week was spent.

2011-11-13T01:18:00.000+08:00

These are picz before I went to KK.

MAN!I MISS CAMWHORING!

MEOW!

our cafeteria and my mocha loca! XD

my very oh-lovable and so-smart roommate cooked this!

my rice and my...VEGE! XD

my fav.flavor!

cuteness in a packet!

melt in ur mouth babeh not in ur hands!

the sea...

i miss daddy!

Midnite mcdonalds!

fuckin good!

this is where i usually take my dinner at.nice eh?

peeps!

MIDNIGHT MCD STARTS HERE! XD

her name is Jingle.believe it!

it's 1am babeh!

me and mr.WANG!

groupies!

labuan's only cinema!

karoeke!

online at McD!

Jingle bells! XD

our rented car and the beach!

i love LABUAN DAMMIT!

So yeah...my week here but this was October and I haven't showed u my KK's photos!AHHHH!!SO exciting! XD

but nonetheless...i had such a great time here and I feel that leaving here for my CNY will kinda suck.But thank God it's for only a month. TEEHEE!

CIAO babes and gents! =D

sitting in the rain.

2011-11-02T00:23:00.000+08:00

i am alone here under a shade and it's pouring like the sky just had a bad burst of pee! XD

so anyway,although I'm alone,I never felt so free!One is that I'm going to K.K soon!BRAVO!and another thing is that I'm having loads of fun with my roommate and my friends!Who am I without them? =)

And there are some things that made me sad too of course..I even cried this evening!But it was all okay after that...as long as I don't think too much. =)

I guess sometimes...when life gives u lemons...just take it.like c'mon!wad's the use holding on anymore ya?SULK IT IN!CRY LIKE A BABY!It doesn't matter if things goes wrong,as long as u have the guts to make it right ya?

I love my life now really.Everything is ok with Nick! =D Glad I have him back in fb!My music friend!TEEHEE!

Alright...gotta send 'em burgers to my pals out there!Peace out ya'll!

CIAO!

Mid-term Maniac!

2011-10-30T00:01:00.000+08:00

OMGOMGOMG!MID TERM IS NEARRRRRRRR!!!!!!

It's like...a day only kay???and im like...here...not studying AT ALL!ISH!Gotta go study ahhhh!!!!!

STRESS!

but then again,I went to McD just now!YES!OMG!AHHHHHH!!!

It's full of adrenaline rush bt it's damn awesome!gonna go KK in like....6 days?OMGOMGOMG!!! XDDDD

okokok...gotta go back to hostel!gonna report my status to mum!hehehe!

CIAO! ^^

Rejecting you is the best decision I have ever made!

2011-10-26T22:45:00.001+08:00

so u think u're the best?u think u're the only who chased me?u think I duno wad games u're playing?aduh!stop trying to find burden to urself k?

I'm not going to be impress in wadever the HELL u r doing!I'm nvr going to be impressed by u ok???

And you think I liked u?OMG!!!!!LONG PIAK!

haiz...dunwan say anythg liao la....

CIAO!

deleted.

2011-10-20T12:08:00.000+08:00

I have deleted several post on my blog.It's not because I hate them or anything.It's just at that moment there is a rush to blog and the things I said made the other person feel like...well,let's just say it's a false feeling.

I hope he understands that I don't mean it THAT WAY...yeah...I guess explaining a lot won't do much help either.Oh well...at least I've tried. =)

And now...I just hope I can upload my pics!MY GAWD!It has been devastating!I have been like...ALONE!Like...I'm never this ALONE!But I really felt it now...

SO yeah...I always say that I don't need a GUY but then where are the girls when I need them?Even the guys don't do much help either....

yes...being very emo now but to look at the bright side,I am truly happy being on my own now.Cuz...people who care will care.People who hates me...will leave and that's right!I don't want any more gossips around me.1 is enough and I have 2!?!WTF!

Exams are coming and today's B.Maths tutorial really scared me a bit there...

Gotta run people...need to get high with my studies and have more MEETINGSSSS!!!!

CIAO!

Happiness.

2011-10-17T01:32:00.000+08:00

It's not sth that easy to say.It's not sth that is easy to feel.

But I felt it.

And it felt good.

Now I know how stupid I am now.haha!

How stupid I am to find sth that is not worth looking for.

For that right moment he appears...like a knight in shinning armor? XD

Oh foolish me...

Ok...random post over!Now for the real deal here.I rmb back then,this girl...she met me from facebook and we hit it off cuz she's a real gud frend and she seriously just SAVED me from that DAFTAR thg during the orientation week!We both helped each other a lot during that time.

My thought for her was that,'I will never ever lose this good friend of mine.'

but,when I met him and then he told me all about her,I never thought my opinion of this girl will be gone.Like VABOOM!

how can love changes a person so fast?

and I wonder how...how long does it take to make evrythg clear?It took me 3 years but exactly 5 years to forget a person!

I remember back in the days.When he told me he wanted to be just friends...my whole hand was shaking from talking to him over the phone,my body shook and my eyes hurt!I CAN'T CRY!I can't do anything because I just realize the people who loved me the most is right in front of my very eyes!I cannot let them see me this sad!I just can't!

So I hold on...till I can cry and I just let it out one go!

But I wanted answers!I DEMAND HIS ANSWERS!What answers u ask?...I wanted to know if he ever loved me?Did he ever cared about me?Did he even consider the fact that I AM HIS GF before?Did he cry???

For FIVE FUCKING YEARS I demanded for that answer!FIVE FUCKING YEARS!

and did I get the answer in the end?

YES!but not from him.from myself.

Did he ever loved me?The answer...Yes.but it was long gone when we grew apart.

DId he ever cared about me?The answer...Yes.But how much caring did he gave?The answer...Not enough.

Did he even consider the fact that I AM HIS GF before?The answer..Yes.He fought hard for me.But what happen was he knew the other girl would be a better replacement.

Did he cry?The answer...(I just had this ans last month.) Yes.He did.Evry man is weak.

But what is the point of having these answers?He will never love me back.He will never look at me the same way he did anymore...

So I grew up and I understand.FIVE FUCKING YEARS BABE!GO FIGURE!

it's up to you to know how to see the bright side.It's your choice to be happy.

I know that evry1 is a good person inside.I know evry1 deserves a gud person for each other.

Love won't be easy.but love won't go far. =)

alrite...nid ta get ta sleep ady la...

CIAO! ^^

i cried when i saw a cow!

2011-10-10T01:39:00.001+08:00

not yet back to labuan but I feel like staying here ald!huhu!

met with BB's frends today!not bad la!can mix with them but i just hope the other frends are as fun as me when they saw his pals!Especially my BOOB touch-mate,Fanny!XD and ah liang!they ROCK...well,to me anyway.hehe!

went to BB's farm this morning.it's peaceful and BIG and...well,its a nice place to scream and look at a pile of cow n lamb dunk! XD All in all,it's a great place to release stress!'rilak rilak' mah ho? XD will upload pics soon! ^^

was back by midnight just now.nobody scold me.nobody cared.nobody TIU!damn nice lar...this is wad I called freedom lor!

and i love BB's family A LOT!They are SOOOOO NICE to me lar!I really wish I can do sth!All I can say is TQ SO MUCH!!!!A ZILLION APOLOGIES if I ever mess up their life routine cuz of me!Would sure love to speak like a pro cantonese when I get back here sumday!^^

din cut my hair 2day but will do in the next few weeks I think?hehe!I love the way evrythg is now...peaceful jor!just dun hunt me back when B.Maths cum 2ml..hope I can be as laid back as now...

I should really get sum sleep now lar...haiz..okay!gotta go catch some Z's!

THANK YOU BB for EVRYTHG!

*BB did his maths in like...less than an hour?awesome!

gtg!CIAO!

I want to live my life to the fullest!

2011-10-09T01:03:00.001+08:00

and so....I followed my dear friend,Boiboiy(BB) to Keningau!YESH!

me and a couple of pals went to Kota Kinnabalu for a walk ytd and stayed in a motel!yeap.the lift is still the old one.the one where u have to slide the door in and out.FUNNEH!

but then,they left early so that they could get back to class.yeap...that's how DESPERATE we were!

the thing now is...I did not left to go K.K...I went for a vacation to Keningau and TADA!Here I am BLOGGING my way to freedom!!!

Told my mum I didn't sleep well last night cuz we were trying to save money by substituting to sleep after my friends had left.Her reaction?She told me:"我听了你那么讲,我心很痛!"...This is when I decided that...I'm not going to say anything that worries my parents anymore.yeap....it's not going to come out of my mouth anymore!NAH-AH!

The reason I wanted to come to Keningau is not becuz of the U-KNOW-WHAT reason...but it's bcuz I want to experience how life is being far away from everything u cared.The further the better.It feels like home here.It really does.BB is really 幸福 to have these people as their family lo!I love the way that his mum cooks and how his friends just works well with anything.Very casual.Very laid-back! ^^ I will miss Fanny and Casper loads lo wei! XD

And to imagine someone u met for the FIRST TIME touches ur BOOBS!yeap!Fanny just go and did it!What is it with the attraction of my boobs and females???!!! XDDDD

I miss KK's Sushi Tei!and OH!the skirts and clothes and SHOES!!!!ADUI!!!DAMN ADDICTED LO K?!just wait till november!JUST WAIT! XD

planning to cut my hair here...hmm...the new me?hehe!

had a great time here really!I finally saw JOHN JOHN and he din bark at me! =DDDDD cute dao~~~~

k la k la...dunwan get too high~later cnt sleep again! XD

P/S:DO NOT TELL THIS TO MY MUM!SHE WILL KILL ME IF SHE KNOWS THIS!CAPISH?

CIAO! ^^

i told him.

2011-10-03T12:05:00.001+08:00

yes!I told him through sms!he didnt took it well.I dun wana explain how it goes but let me just say that when u reject a guy,he acts like he doesnt like u AT ALL!

However,he does admit that he liked me LAST WEEK!MY GOD!My friends told me he really is FAKE!Damn!And he even make up lies to cover up the sms that nite.ish!

I don't know how to talk to him anymore.I don't know how to look at him without feeling like there is sth wrong with us!GOD!I'm ur frend still!Dun act like u duno me!Dun make evrythg think that I'm the bad guy!Dun go and FUCK MY LIFE into nothing!

I really had a bad mood ytd...there's this gal...omg!dun even make me GO THERE!She really just BITCH it out!She took over my seat..that's fine...but she put sand in my eyes when she's playing!BORROWED my water to please a guy!EHEM!then just totally BITCH at me when I sat at MY PLACE!WOW!She wants a game?I can give it to her!I can make her life miserable!Trust me!She ain't going to live well!

CIAO!

this is why I should never stay close.

2011-09-29T22:55:00.002+08:00

I always thought I would never be the one to hurt someone.Oh I was wrong.

Priz,I am a really bad person am I?I can't force myself to like this guy anymore.I am hurting him.The nicer he treats me,the guiltier I get.I wanted to tell him how I feel.I wanted to tell him I don't feel the same but I can never say it.I hate my guts!

And now,he thinks I'm a WHORE!A FUCKING WHORE!I think he hates me more than anything now.Haiz...Oh great....he comes and saw me with a guy and he runs off.Ytd,I was also with the other guy.We talked like we've known each other for ages!He got JJ and then he left with a F finger in his face. Sigh...

God,am I a bad person?Am I just...a fucking bitch now?Tell me God.I used to stand in his place.Now,I am standing in the other place and I saw what I did not want to see.I really hate myself!

I think I should sms him and tell him.

I hope I am doing the right thing.

May God bless me.

CIAO!

and it feels like home.

2011-09-23T18:39:00.000+08:00

Talked about our past last night.It feels like I finally have someone to talk to.

U carried my luggage this morning.I feel like this is home.This is where I belong.God brings me here for this.I know I can't stop you from feeling like this.I feel guilty.

And now I miss my friends more than ever!This place is big!FINE!BUT I MISS THEM SO MUCH!I just cannot stop thinking about them loh!

I can't really find friends like this anymore.Love them!! ^^

Will update more soon. =)

CIAO!

what i need to say.

2011-09-22T11:58:00.002+08:00

The only thing I need right now is to get my life into one piece.I cannot let anything break me down again!Not like what the last guy did to me.I can't just let u come in and control me again!

I know how u feel.I really do but maybe it takes time for me to put someone back in my life again.

When I try to tell u how I feel,I couldn't put my words out there.Thanks for being nice.Thanks for doing so many things but if I found that I don't tell u the truth,u might fall deeper and I can't do anything without hurting you then.

It's not like I dun want to...bcuz now isn't the time to do this.

I just need a bit of time.Plz understand...

*talking to myself again.planning how to talk to u evryday in my head.this sucks.

Beautiful People.

2011-09-18T15:09:00.002+08:00

Everywhere,everywhere...
Everywhere I go.
Everywhere that i’ve been,
The only thing I see is...
Is beautiful people!

At the airport.

from left,Johnny,mum,me,dad and Audrey

This is how big the Balai Polis is in KK!WOW!

haha!I manage to took a pic of thee policeman! XD

My room number in KK.

This room is SO HIGH MAN!

I have to climb like to the 4th floor?!

1borneo!

HIGH!!!

McDonalds.My GAWD!I miss this!

ah LOK!

He likes KK's 1borneo's fries! XD

Bowling Babeh!

Orange BALL! XD

LOKI and MANDY

the main entrance.

My roommates in KK!

At the DEWAN CANSELLOR

My 1st time showing in baju kurung...

In tha bus!

We have to wear this....thing when we graduate...

yeap....

WENDY and MANDY

pretty and big eh?

OH!for the record,this is the 2nd floor view.

Seeing this makes me happy.I have finally reached my goal!

the bag!

The bottles of Sabah!

My room in KK!

my gang!

I am in JAIL!

moving to Labuan.

Padang Kawad.

pray before setting off.

jetty,

UGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

CHIE YANG! THE HAPPY APPLE!

LOKI!

On the ferry.

Playing on the ferry!

carpark!

the person driving this ship is inside the yellow thing....

PWEWITT!

AHOY!

this guy mmg ... XD

stardom!

LOVE!

when i took this photo,i din know there was 1000 people looking at me while I'm at it.. ==

being cooky!

SISWA!

this is the part where people stand up!

XDDDD

oohhh..the ship is leaving...

inilah labuan! XD

the sky is blue.

Having a wild time in the ferry...ENJOY!

OMG!We laughed the whole night at this place! XD

RAWRING FROM KUCHING!

I seriously love Labuan!I will never be bored here.Wanted to publish my...ehem story but there's like PEOPLE here staring at wad I'm typing...so yeah! XD will update more later! ^^

CIAO!

FREEDOM!

2011-09-16T21:43:00.002+08:00

I AM FREE!

I have never felt better about myself in my life.University is THE LIFE man!There is no one stopping me from doing anything.No one to argue.No need to care about useless stuff.This is just me and myself and my life!

YES!I HAVE FRIENDS!They are the ones that rocks my world now!I never lived a day without laughing here!Here,I felt happy!FINALLY!Thank you God!I know there is a reason for me to be here.THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

OH!

Of course there is A GUY! XDDDD

but there is TWO! O.O

yeah.....okay....i duno like...if they read my blog or sth cuz they wanted my blog link so bad last time,I had to hide my laptop for like a week! XD

So...anywho...I'll just tell u the story lah!It's a blog anyway and even if they know they could PRETEND not to know riteeeeE??? XD

ALRITE!Here goes...

the 1st guy...

let's call him L.

We hit it off the 1st day we met!He company me to do loads of stuff and he treated me like a BROTHER!SO I can really confirm that he doesn't like me.His english isnt that good also. ^^ XD I sort of gave up him for the 2nd guy but when we hang out today,he....hugged me all of a sudden!He is the OPEN type of person la u know?He only did it to whisper sth to me.It's nothing to him but it's surely a BIG thing to me.And besides....HE IS HOT!DO u know how Gerard Way looks like?Imagine him with a smilling face and more friendly type of look.yeah...u get the picture...OH!And he is from JOHOR!

the 2nd guy...

let's call him C.

I met him on the 1st or 2nd day when I go KK but we din really talked cuz he has his gang and I have mine.When we got to Labuan,we started to get along real well and he even accompany me till midnight to do my homework!He walked me back to my hostel after that. ^^ This became a routine.So,we purposely go back late all the time so that we can talk about music and gossips! XD Let me just say sth...HE ISN'T MY TYPE AT ALL!Trust me!But his heart touched me!I really do think he likes me but not until this comes out from his mouth,I won't confirm anythg. =P Just now,we went for dinner at the beach cafe,he found my lost bottle and returned to me!AWW!And he smsed me evrytime i get back to hostel and checked out for me whenever I can.We can really just TALK u know?Like I dun have to be pretty in front of him.I can just be me!

After our HORRIBLE dinner at the beach cafe.....Cuz it was rainning (let me just say,when it's rainning in labuan,expect a RIBUT and WIND blowing evrywhr!EVEN THE MEE CAN STICK TO MY FACE WHEN I EAT!WTF!) We have a group of 11 friends rite?They left us 2 there laughing non-stop on his jokes!When we turned back and look,they all left! O.O SO...we have to walk all the way back with my umbrella.YES!There is SHARING UMBRELLA IN THIS STORY!!! LOL!!!

He walked me back to the "MENARA",we laughed and laughed non-stop!I tell u!I have never had the best time under the rain all my life!He cheered me up!HE EVEN LOST HIS WALLET today but he manage to cheer me up when I was the one who was supposed to do that! He is the sweetest guy EVER!Like u can only find him in novels!He even hold my hand when I dun dare to cross the longkang!PRISCA dear,tell me now....is this....u know???? XDDD

let me just say...saya nak SURVEY2 dulu la...i dunwan to jump into conclusions cuz there is still time and I havent really adapt to this place yet.Let's just wait and see how it goes ya?

Ok...love story dah habis!

Now to tell u how bad labuan is! XD No la!I love it here!The beaches are better and brighter and BLUER!The shopping malls are okay la.I really do think the food here taste better than in Kuching loh!he seafood here is damn AWESOME and FRESH!The Kakak here is even nicer lo!They treat us like their kids! T.T So touched!!!I felt blessed to be here la really.There isn't any regrets yet.But till now,I think this is a real good place to study in.When u have fun,just let it go!When study just study lah.Cuz there's also nothing here to have fun when u study.hehe!

OH!The Nasi Ayam Masak Merah is AWESOME HERE! XD *Johnny tell me to update this! LMAO!

Alrite..I gtg before they see this!He's just next to my table leh!OMG!I really do hope they never see this!

Will post more soon!

CIAO! =D

Uni Life!

2011-09-14T16:33:00.000+08:00

At megalab...

damn hungry!

Next class will be english.Hope its not hard loh!Academic writting man!ughhh...

and labuan isnt that bad la...a nice place to chill! =)

and yeahhh...pics will come soon...dun worry!!!

gtg...CIAO!

this is real.this is me!

2011-09-03T03:42:00.000+08:00

it's almost 4am.

I'm blogging mainly because I miss everything.I just hope I can make it through all this.I am going by Monday and hell!I miss Kuching already!I keep pushing my parents to bring me to many places!I know they love me.Mum even told me she almost cried the other day when she thought abt me leaving home.AHAHA!

Know why?Cuz I'm the naughtiest and loudest at home.I make war babeh! XD

But still,when my bro leaved this morning..I didn't wake up to fetch him to the airport(Thanks Mum!ughhh..) But mum told us he wanted so much to wake us up cuz he wanted to see us 1st.However,I was still in dreamland and when I woke up,I screamed!I went all,"WTF!?!THE SUN!AWWW MAN!" His flight was 6am!haiz...too bad eh?But I'll see him next year.No biggie.hehe!

OH!And come to think of it...I HAVEN'T EVEN FINISH PACKING MY THINGS YET!AHHHHHHHHHH!It's not that I dun want to..it's just that each time I pack my thgs...it brings me away from home..bit by bit!

I know I am going to grow up now.No more mummy or daddy.It's high time I make my own choices and walk my own road. =)

Will be updating about KK and Labuan next!Hope to write to u guys real soon! =D

CIAO!

Thank you GOD!

2011-08-30T02:39:00.000+08:00

Had my urine test today and I swear it's going to be the last!

My report : ALL NEGATIVE!

My mum jumped in the air and called me as soon as she received the fax from the doc!Me too was jumping around!HEHE!

Went swimming with my cousin today!Damn happy! =D

Talked a lot of stuff with my aunt tonight.I asked her if she ever been to Labuan before.I didn't know why it took me so long to ask her this but I finally did.She gave me a very encouraging answer.She said,"When I first went to Labuan,I thought the place was heaven!"

I was like... "U R SO KIDDING ME!"

She said,"I'm speaking from my heart babe."

I couldn't believe it and I asked her how GREAT Labuan is and she said,"Labuan's beach is real pretty and the shopping mall...even though there's only ONE,but it's still a very nice place to me.It is prettier than Kuching lah dear!Trust me on this!"

And then all of a sudden I know why my other aunt wanted to live there till today.She loves beaches!She even gets to marry the man of her dreams there!WOW!

I feel really excited for this adventure now.I know it's going to be hard but I know I can find people there that can help me conquer all that!The people I still have are really supportive with me already.I AM LUCKY!I AM LUCKY to be here and God always have been here to bless me!From the bottom of my heart,thank you so much!I know there is a reason for me to be in Labuan,I won't let u down God! =D

For people who are reading this,never let anything pull u down!Be faithful of the people and things around you.U R BORN THIS WAY BABEH!ALL THE BEST! =)

CIAO!

Improve!

2011-08-26T14:38:00.000+08:00

Got a call from dad.He told me the doc told him I still have the Ketone in my urine but there's only like ONE?! YEAH!And my previous test was WAY worst than this time.The doc told me to drink loads of water and keep up the exercise!WOOTS!

Only 2-3 days and I did it!If I can go through THAT hell!This is surely no prob for me now!

SO HAPPY!!!HAHAHAHA!!!I just wish this Ketone thing can just go away!SHOOOOOO!!! XD

Alrite!Keep on the healthy eating and GAMBATEH for ya'll who's having diet and keeping healthy!

Take care!

CIAO! =D

很爽!

2011-08-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

Today was hectic!SO many cars cuz of the Raya last minute shopping loads of ppl are doing and of course the grand opening of GIANT!

Bought my couzzies to tuition but my grandparents were able to bring me to swim still.Love them loads! =)

Got an hour to swim today and my a$$ starts to hurt cuz ytd I push myself too hard!Had my usual dinner and flop to my grandparents couch and ZZZZ away!!

So damn tired but I feel healthy anyway!^^

My cousins manage to cheer me up when I played with them.The wonders of being a children is when u have nothing to care about and that the world is weightless to them.When u look at them,u can't help but to put a smile onto your face. =D

So yeah..2ml is my urine test so gotta sleep early later!hehe!Gonna go take sum milk with cereal now!

TA TA! =P

Refreshed!

2011-08-25T01:38:00.001+08:00

Okay.So I have gone and run a test on my body recently and found that my urine has something called 'Ketone'.Sounds very normal to you eh?Well,it's not!Not even close!

KETONE: Your body cells use sugar for energy. Insulin must be present for your body cells to use sugar for energy. When there is not enough insulin present your cells cannot use sugar to obtain the energy they need. If your body cannot get energy from sugar, fat is used instead. When fat is broken down, ketones are made. Ketones are strong acids and are harmful to your body. Ketones in your urine may be a sign that you are developing diabetic ketoacidosis.

See that?Yeap.I'm going to be diabetic if I don't control my food intake and exercise regularly.It's scary huh?

BLAME?

WHO was I to blame???MYSELF!For eating too much McD and KFC of course!And starve myself during breakfast!And of course not drinking enough water!

So,I advise for those of you who think that you are really healthy and can skip meals or sleep late,think again!You are making your body HATE you!By that,it makes things harder for you.

MOTIVATION!

I have told my aunt about my situation and of course some frends of mine.They are very helpful!My aunt sms me and told me to keep up!She is dieting with me!And she bets that she can slim faster than I do!haha!

One of my friend prayed for me!Even though I never met her yet(she's gunna be in labuan with me),she told me not to give up and that I have ald help her by telling her abt my situation.She told me she will go for a check-up soon cuz she skips loads of meals n drink only a bottle of water a day!

Some of my friends gave me words of encouragement!U know who u guys are!^^ TKS SO MUCH! =D

THE BEGINNING!

I have start to eat moderately like old times.Not being picky about my food and just eat!I even jot down what I ate!It looks healthy and motivating! ^^

I have also jot down the exercise I did.Like this morning,my bro accompany me walk from my old school to kenyalang.About 10-15 minutes brisks walk.Then,on 3pm,my grandparents bring me to swim!hehe!YES!They are really good swimmers! =P It was a non-stop 1 and a half hour of swim!Totally WORTH IT!

RESULT!

Trust me when I say this,I feel like I'm happier and more focus on the things I do.I feel like everyone is telling me I can do this!And I just have to keep telling myself I could!I have to push till this friday for my urine test again.I hope I can pass this test!If it's normal,then I would still continue this!Nothing can ever bring me down with swimming! =D

I hope this post can motivate evryone who is reading this.I really hope I can help other people who are going through this!I FEEL U GUYS!I AM HERE!I AM HERE ALL THE WAY for all our health!

Like they say,"going through it is hard but the result is THE PRIZE!" Just aim for that PRIZE and go for it!

Alrite...gotta sleep ald..whoa...1:30 am loh!!Gotta go! CIAO!

The Dead Crow.

2011-08-22T02:49:00.001+08:00

He saw a dead crow
in a drain
near the Post Office,
He saw an old man
gasping for air
And a baby barely able to breathe
In a crowded morning clinic
This land is so rich
Why should we suffer like this?

I want clean air
For my grandchildren
I want the damned fools
To leave the forest alone,
I want the trees to grow,
The rivers run free
And the earth covered with grass.Let the politicians plan how
we may live with dignity
Now and always

-A.Samad Said

*he was part of Bersih 2.0 too! check it out! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r7DFEMV8-G4

The problem is ME!

2011-08-21T22:30:00.000+08:00

Went to see a Bio-electro stimulation doctor today cuz of my back pain constantly having nerve pain and all that.

So he went on to press the ...i don't know what u called it...the POINTS?so some of it hurt and all that.

When he sat down and told me and my parents that I have a lot of disease like diabetics OR high blood and my kidney system is down and I have cholesterol...my mum got so shock her eyes went O.O

My feelings?I was shocked too!AND devastated!I thought it's okay..I mean..since I'm young and all.Great...now I'm A PATIENT! T.T

Glad I asked him how to prevent this.He said I have to go swim and bike evryday for at least half an hour!To push my blood flow and all that.OH GOSH!

I'm like...YOUNG!I'm 20!!!And I have...@#$%^&*

So yeah...I did gave up food I like now.I can keep track of what I can do and all that.He said that I'm still young.I can cure myself!So here I am...going to stop Facebook and sleep early so that I can get back to normal health!I just hope I manage it.haiz...

God please give me the courage to STOP binge eating and give me a healthy heart!

Orite...Gonna sleep early from 2nite!I'm BEAT too!

CIAO guys!OH!And dun worry!I'm still ok! ^^ It's just my body telling me that I'm gonna have these disease soon if I dun do anythg!I will make miracle happen!Just watch me! ^.<

LOSE 10KG!HERE I COME!

Augustine!

2011-08-20T03:23:00.000+08:00

Life has been great!Well,exclude the drama between me and mum sometimes though.HAHA!Me and my mum aren't close by nature.We argued A LOT!About ANYTHING and EVERYTHING!

But as always,when I left for National Service,I cried the night before and the day I was leaving on the bus.

I find that as much as u try to hate your family,u tend to love them as much as you hate them too!HAHA!

So here comes August!And here are the pictures...

Ah yes...Miss Katy Perry!The chart topper!The next person to be famous after mr.MJ?

Trisha,my cousin had her bday party at her mum's SHARED restaurant,Friends Garden! ^^

uh...My brother manage to kill the time by making an origami of a CAT!

AHAHAHA!The newspaper wan is mine! XD

HOW CAN U NOT LAUGH AT STH LIKE THAT?!!!

XDDDDDDDD

Me and my coussie got a bit drunk at the food fest!

and i took this pic randomly!I swear!nice eh?

pretty garden eh?lalala~

cameo!

I realized that I have gotten a tinsy WAYYYY chubbier than before!

Well,if I can't get chubby now,when will that be eh? LMAO!

Yes,I admit,I have been eating junk food like crazy lately!It's not addiction though.I just think that...since I'm going to a place where there is not much to hang ard to,why not EAT now?Cuz at labuan,evrythg is in TOWN,nothing much at where I'm staying...sad eh?15 minutes to town.Bus,ain't cheap cuz evrythg there is MONOPOLIZE!UGH!

But hey...look at the bright side!My aunt is there to save me!haha!N of course CHOCS!!!!

How can I forget my dahling PRIZ!!!LOL!She has a car already!And if I stop by Miri,I'll get the chance to RIDE WITH THIS SHAWTY! XD I'm just glad good things are happening everywhere now. =)

15 days left to the UNKNOWN!

CIAO! ^^

blessed.

2011-08-14T01:08:00.000+08:00

Recently,I was busy with the Buddhist thgy.It was nice to pray again and again.I have never felt so PURE before!I mean...I laughed till I cried this morning!That felt awesome!LMAO!

and then me and my bros bonded over one simple joke!It goes like this;if we were to saw anythg crazy on the streets,u have to say "KINTIO!" SO yeah...imagine me upside down on the car seat! XDDD

I have to say...it was nice to have these feelings again!Cuz I'll be going to Labuan and come home after 4 months!That's like..SOOO LONG!I have never ever been away from my family for THAT LONG!I'm sure I'll miss them but the thing is...I have to 'make faces'.U know?Like be nice to people and get bullied and I can't do anythg cuz I have a religion(and mama's rule!) and it kinda sucks cuz on the back of my brain,I just wana punch them in the face!That is what KILLS me most of the time!UGGGHHH!!!Okok...purity...no more nonsense!They tick me off bcuz I owe them.I have to know that! =) much better! XD

I remember what my mum told me.If I was ever gonna get hit or bullied by anyone,I cannot fight back or even lay a finger on them.This is because in the Buddhist rule,if he/she does these things to you,it means u used to owe them during your past lives.Let them get back what they want and don't cycle the karma.In fact,I find it so true!

I get bullied a lot.Really.I do.I'm not joking!It's not that I LIKE TO GET BULLIED or WON'T DO ANYTHG!It's cuz I am refrain from doing so!If I fight back,my mum will scold me first!Not the person who bully me!Sucks eh?But it's good!I love the way my mum sets this rule.I used to think it's BULLSHIT!Wana know wad change my mind?Here's why...

ok..this is a true story and I'm gonna be honest here cuz I know I can trust u guys. =)
During form 3,Girl A and Girl B was ehm...Homo.so...They used to be my best buds until they hook-up and erm...yeah...

so Girl A was still my best buds but Girl B was jealous so Girl B tried to find ways to make me suffer.I have to admit,Girl B is a lil' NUTS on her head! (HER MUM TOLD MY MUM SO!I DID NOT MADE THAT UP!) That explains why she's Homo at the first place too.Ok..back to the story..

Girl B end up making a story that I tell everyone she's GAY!And that I pointed the finger to this MACHO guy in school!Oh well,the guy had no brain...too bad!He came to my class with all his mates and scream at me...WITHOUT PROVE!Man,when he did that,my friend stood by me and grab my hand so that I dun slap him!I was in RAGE!!!So he told his AHOLE MATES to buy a coke just to pour it all in my face!What's even worst?My heart was broken that time from another AHOLE guy!

U know the feeling when Isaac Newton had the apple hit on the head?yeah.I felt that and I just cool off!I duno why.I din do anythg other than crying but I FEEL SO GOOD!Those tears weren't from him treating like that,it was from this thing that i finally knew!I WOKE UP!

So then,I skip my science class and saw Girl B looking at me from the window.I got a chair and threw it in front of her!Swear to God that she was so scared that she almost fell down the stairs!

My parents heard what happen and came to school the next morning.My dad was holding this BIG METAL thgy and wanted to hit that guy! AHAHA!Thks dad! ^^ The guy was so scared that he almost cried!We clear everythg up.

Of course that guy and Girl B still hates me!UNLUCKILY,during form 4 and 5,we were in the same class!But then the guy end up being nice to me and hates Girl B too. =D Well,let's just say evry1 hates her so much tat she ends up going sum place other than kuching.I heard the other school kicks her out!WHOOPS!

OH!So where was Girl A u ask?well,she din do a damn thing when I was SPLASHED by the guy!NOTHING!She din even talk to me after that was over!And we still manage to be frends till now?But we end up not seeing each other as much anymore cuz she got another gf and ... u know la...

I'm glad that this happened too.Really.After that happened,my grades shot up!I was in the first place during f4 and 5!Surprised eh?But I end up pushing myself too hard that I cried when SPM comes and even vomit on the BM paper!Yeap.Stress!But I was okay.Thank GOD! =D

So u see,it's not that bad.Just let it pass.HELL!Even Rebecca Black shines like a star when she got so many ppl cyber bullying her!Just look for the bright side babeh! =)

Okay...I gtg...it's late and I gotta pray again 2ml!It's the last day too! ^^

CIAO!

i hate my love life.screw it!

2011-08-12T14:40:00.000+08:00

I know I know..he is having his coming exams and all that but it sucks not to talk to him and all that.UGH!

And I know how the ending would be to this story.It would only be a friend thg.Like always.

3 cheers to damn love life!or CRUSH life if that's how u wana put it.

Life is messy.Sometimes,I think...the people who reads my blog tends to get info from me only. NOT U PRIZ dear!! =) u know...like....ughhh..I dun wana mention their names.U know who u are.Get real!

My back hurts!!!!

CIAO!

I threw my bait out and u caught it!

2011-08-10T12:04:00.000+08:00

I'm supposed to be happy.Like when u do all those things,I feel like I have caught u.U r now hanging onto this bait!But now,I feel like I'm the bad guy or sth...and that I should let u go!

WOW!It's true when people say they are many fishes in the sea...XD Look at how I describe it! LMAO!

okok..to the point now..

Why do I always do this?!!!Now I feel like I'm making u wait!UGH!Plz don't wait!Faster go find someone and change ur relationship status to IN A RELATIONSHIP!I don't want u to wait!GO GO!Enjoy ur life!Dun wait out for me!!!

Oh great,I'm blableling too much...oh god..

and I found that my blood pressure is 130!OMG!Like the doc just look at me and went,"WOW!Ur blood pressure is high dear." But my urine test is normal...wtf!

I guess I need to consult my dear old KC!He is an expert in these thgs..thank God I have him!WHEW! =D

Orite...nid him to help me plan my exercise now! LMAO!

CIAO!

I DID IT! =D

2011-08-04T01:57:00.000+08:00

BEGGED FLYFM TO PLAY "Jealousy"-Will young

SO I created this! for the flypapertweets!

oops...forgot the hash tag!

AND THEY DID!AND THEY MENTIONED MY NAME! =D SO HAPPY!!!!

The Tadpole begged the song for about a week and I finally got them to play it!WOOHOO!!!

OH OH!AND I FINALLY SAW MR.LED ZEPPELIN TODAY! =DDDDDDDD

MIRACLES HAPPEN ONCE IN A WHILE.....WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

XD

okok...nid to chill now..

CIAO! =D

life is a mystery!

2011-08-02T02:30:00.000+08:00

HEY!WADS UP???!!!!Having a fabuloso time cuz I have already completed all my task for today and going to do a new task 2ml!haha!

I haven't post any pics for some time now..so here it goes...

My TURKEY SANDWICH!

with cucumber and toothpick in the middle to make it stay in place!

I like to create food and make a presentation.

Do u know that my bro ate all of it?Even when it sucked? XD

bcuz of the PRESENTATION!It's important!!!

nah...it was awesome lah! XD

DOMOMO and ANGRY BIRDS fever!!

Mum's bday! ^^

I went a bit too far when I BORROWED the DOMO bag...MWAHAHAHA!

O.O

You see,it was kinda my cousin's fault...

she carries her Hello Kitty ard and it makes me ITCH!

and there u have it...OVERCUTEITCHYNESS!

emo time.

THIS PICTURE MAKES ME LAUGH LIKE A LUNATIC!!! XD

OH!Rmb him??? =DDD

It's NICK!from WESTLIFE!

At Benson's

Went overboard with the LOVE sticker! XD

Kim BAY!- Pullman

DO NOT ORDER THE GINGER HONEY DRINK!IT KILLS U!

WWE CHAMPIONSHIP!!!!I WANT! XD

and i gone a bit too far with the photo-frame framing...

if only love is so easy...

OH!find me if u want this tee! ^^

Didi's bday cake!

HEYLO!

nice cake eh?

her mum is gonna have the 3rd baby!Guess!Boy or Girl???

Siblings!

Lady GAGA!

family!

4 yrs old!

the back turn!

GHOST! XD

PRESENT TIME!

okay..so that was wad happen ONE WHOLE WEEK!WHEW!It was awesome and I'm glad July is over and August is here! =D I hope all goes well this month and next month is my BLOOMING month!hope I can get used to the life there! =D

okay...hope ya'll enjoy this!and yeah..I have ald deleted my 2nd blog...cuz..i hate that I have to go here and there.1 blog makes me headache already!Okay...c u all in the next post!

CIAO!

Lovin' everything each day!

2011-07-30T01:37:00.000+08:00

I can't put the ORI vid so u can find it in Youtube! =)

So...yeah..OF CUZ it's abt him!DUH! XD

and...so far...I have been hanging out so much I don't have time for myself!Well,actually...working and playing la.haha!I'm trying to cherish evrythg that I have rite now.I even jot down a list of WHAT TO DO IN KCH BEFORE I LEAVE TO UNI! XD Crazy rite???But I'm happy evrythg is going well now. =D

And it's not like I'm not gonna be back rite?I'll still be in the net!Surfing like crazy! hehe!

I'll miss evryone!A LOT! =3

alrite..before I get teary eyed...i love u all! =D

CIAO!

Would I trade you off with someone cool?

2011-07-23T14:18:00.000+08:00

Yes.I have deleted the previous post cuz I don't want to invite haters to my blog.SO yeah..I know "SUM PPL" still reads my blog so...Let them hate,I will not care! =)

alrite!so...ytd..I've gone to a Christian gathering thgy..well,I'm a Buddhist.So I really dun get this GATHERING thgy.But I can tell u one thing,the Christains do thgs very powerful!I mean it!When they sing 2gether,they sing with their hearts!N for that,it's power!N they help each other out no matter wad religion u r!That inspired me.A LOT! =)

I saw a guy there ytd.AHAHA!Did I fall for him?Well,honestly..a lil' bit bcuz he was such a gentleman!But other than that,no...but I DID dreamt about him just now.. and he gave me a .... KISS!ok...so...why does these dreams keep happening to me anyway?Am I being single for too long?Is that it??? O.O

I have my own reason for wanting to be single.Not that nobody wants me! XD it's just that...I don't think having one is a pride.Some ppl just have bf or gf bcuz they think it's normal to do so.I tell u what,if u don't really love someone like u would die for them then DON'T put urself beside them and call them ur soul mate.

ok...so here goes my convo with this guy ytd...He's in the KK UMS.So...he told me that he's gonna pick me when I reached there. =O so then he can show me the campus and all that so I dun get blur la.nice eh?

and then he came ard and asked me what I took and all that.He told me he took TESL and I was like WTF!If that course was given to me,I would be SOOOO lucky! XD but NOOOO...I have to go labuan n suffer my ass off! XD

And he even told me he wants to take me out shopping! O.O HOLY ~~CRAP~~ COW!OH!and...before he went home,he asked me if I want a ride home.WALAO!and....he said,"C U NEXT WEEK!",gave me a smile and head off! O.O what is this???I mean...I din even tell him I will be going next week to the islamic info center but there he goes...he just knew!The thing is...he is the only guy who can read my name in chinese without reading it like a teacher!LMAO!

So erm...I am really stuck in the middle rite now.Bcuz I recall ytd...I looked like shit!Cuz I just got out of work and I forgot to wash my hair!So imagine me looking like a pain and he just kept his cool and talked to me like tat.wow...I just STOOD there!

Now,I feel like a bad person cuz when a guy comes along..I totally forget abt my other crush...damn!He better not treat me more nice or else I'll...nvm.. XD

okay...I GOTTA EAT!CIAO!

Accept.

2011-07-21T13:49:00.000+08:00

I am sad.Really.Cuz I can't SHOP till I drop!and the thing is,no matter how hard to try to convince myself...it's no use.

But then,I know God wants me there for a reason.Cuz I pick my course from God.I duno how to explain but it's just the thing that I choose la.

Some people told me that I am lucky and all that.Tell you what,yes,I am VERY lucky to have this course I know.But to be in the position of having to go to Labuan and suffer FOOD?No way!

And u know wad?ytd,my frend went to labuan to LOOK for herself and she said Labuan sucks.A LOT!how am I going to smile like this?And she said someone even got drown in the seaside near my campus!T.T

I have already come to a conclusion.I'll just go.Bcuz this is what I choose and it's my responsibility.I know that God grant me to Labuan to study,not to go on a vacation.SO yeah.No matter how ICKY the food is...we have to accept it.And I SO have to eat loads of FOOD when I get there!!!

I hope this friday,I won't go there as a waste cuz I need to ask loads of thgs!

Oh well,I guess..I just have to accept this.For now.3 years is fast to pass la.I hope I can make time go a bit faster then. XD

God,I wish I can meet loads of frends there to keep my boredom out! =D

all the best!CIAO!

Seniors.

2011-07-19T11:28:00.000+08:00

I know it's going to be hard.I know that.But I hate having to know Labuan is small and has nothing...T.T I really want to just go to a place where I can shop till I siao...like in KK!Oh well,my seniors told me not to worry cuz I will have a great time there.To me,if I have my laptop,everything will be ok.Frends will be there for me.I know I can do this!I just need to study 1st and then play hard later.I shall not give up!!!

CIAO!

2011-07-18T00:36:00.000+08:00

I take it all back

All that I said

It comes out to fast

So I

Just couldn’t help

The way that I felt

I started the fire.

Watching you walk

I followed you there

Standing too close

It’s hurting.

I pictured the words

The warmth of your breath.

I started the fire

It’s burning.

And it feels like jealousy

And it feels like I can’t breathe

And I’m on, down on my knees

And it feels like jealousy.

Seeing a light

A face in the crowd

My lonely heart is racing.

And my whole world

Is under attack.

What kinda love am I facing?

Is it me that you want

Cos its me you can have

Can you give me an answer?

I’m tired of waiting.

I’m tired of thinking.

And it feels like jealousy

And it feels like I can’t breathe

And I’m on, down on my knees

And it feels like jealousy.

I’m tired of waiting.

I’m tired of thinking.

And it feels like jealousy (hey)

And it feels like I can’t breathe (I can’t breathe)

And I’m on, down on my knees (ohh)

And it feels like jealousy.

There's a deep meaning to this song.HE tagged me this.It's actually Will Young's new single!Hope u guys like it!

CIAO!

The start of something NEW!

2011-07-17T04:05:00.000+08:00

Alright.As you all know...ok,fine,some of u may NOT know..that I am chosen to be in UMS!

I was SOOOO HAPPY when I got the offer!My GOD!I scream and jump like crazy!Until...

I found out that where I go is actually at...LABUAN!Not the one in KK!But...

I end up founding out a lot of stuff...

there used to be a water shortage in UMS Labuan.Which indeed,sucks but now is ok! =D
UMS Labuan is NEW!So that means...GOOD facilities,GOOD bed,GOOD...well,need I say more? =D
THE MOST FAMOUS:TAX-FREE CHOCS AND WINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =DDDDDDDD
U get to be on a FERRY!Cuz the Orientation week is in KK so yeah.should be okay. =) cuz I nvr ride on ferry b4! XD
BEACH!!!!!!!Not bitch,mind you. =P
The seafood there is DAMN FRESH!
My aunt is there which makes me closer to Nick and Vanessa! YIPPIE!
People there are more nice and no traffic jam! =O
There is not much entertainment around the campus - which makes me easier to study!Cuz well,I am a SHOPAHOLIC!If u ever shop with me then u will understand! XD
Mum and dad gets to visit KK and Labuan! =D
Driving there won't be a prob cuz the traffic there not so hectic which makes me safer! =D
I can meet PRIZ when I transit through MIRI! =D
The course is in ENGLISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =DDDDDD
I can SWIM!It has been a dream for me to be close to a beach and stay there for some time.Now that my goal is coming~Can cancel it liao!WOOHOO!
STRESS FREE!WHY?BEACH! =D
U won't kill me if I say BEACH again now wud u? XD
I have a lot lah!Later say till 100! XDDD
TIME SQUARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So,I have to say,I am very happy with what God has given me.It makes me safe and I know that God is always with me.He always listens to my prayers.Thank you for everything God!

THIS IS UMSKAL!

TA-DA!

and this is the TOWN!

TIME SQUARE!

Although Labuan maybe small but I know that it is WAY BETTER than Kuching!Cuz Kuching so boring~No famous building or wadever~It's nice to go to somewhere for a change.3 years is just a few blink away!thank God I dun have to suffer 4 yrs like my bro in Kelantan!Now,THAT IS TORTURE!If u duno Kelantan,all I have to tell u is...there is no CINEMA there or any source of entertainment!Like what priz said...it's a DEAD CITY! LMAO!

Alright..it's 4AM!!!OMG!okok...Gotta go sleep now!

CIAO!

oh was I hard to love?

2011-07-14T23:42:00.001+08:00

This girl,Yasmin is a British!And she can sing!

She used to be a model too!Can't believe it right?

This gal can sing and model!She is also VAIR VAIR preeeeetttyyyy!!!MY GAWD!I tot she's indian or sth...but hell no!

She used to be a DJ at first and when I saw her interview,she is so down to earth!Like she is just this innocent girl!And she said that she will always have a surprise in all her songs which makes me really want to get her album!U GO GIRL!

here's the lyrics:

[Chorus:]
Our time has been running out,
And there ain't no way to catch it now!
I say goodbye and walk it out!
Was I hard to love?
Cause I just can't seem to find enough
I think this is the end of us.
Finish line!
Yeah, yeah, yeah!
Finish line!

[Verse 1:]
Separation, you and me,
And everything that you say is turning me.
Futures blinding, your eyes dying,
Inside your heart is cold!

And I think we should face it,
We've both been complacent,
There's no point tryna save it,
And boy that's not denying,
We haven't been trying, thru with all the crying!

[Chorus:]
Our time has been runnin out
And there ain't no way to catch it now
Just say goodbye and walk it out
Was I hard to love?
Cause I just can't seem to find enough,
I think this is the end of us
(Finish line)

[Verse 2:]
Long time coming we been fronting
Let's not fake this any longer now
We should (We should) let go (let go)
Turn back walk on weigh in
Leave this all behind

And I think we should face it,
We both become placent
There's no one trying to save it (oooh)
And boy that's not denying,
We haven't been trying, thru with all the crying

[Chorus:]
Our time has been running out,
And ain't no way to catch it now
Just say goodbye and walk it out
Was I hard to love?
Cause I just can't seem to finding enough
I think this is the end of us

(Finish line)
Yeah... yeah
(Finish line)

[Bridge:]
The light is fadin and I'm headed into darkness baby
Memories falling apart
I can't keep holdin see my arms won't seem to let me
Gotta use my head not my heart
(Finish line)

(Finish line)
Yeah... yeah
(Finish line)

Hope ya'll like it!^^

CIAO!

understand.

2011-07-14T14:31:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to know where my problem is.The way he treats me cold.He told me abt it.No,I'm not offended.I'm glad he did too and I'm SO glad I asked. =)

I don't want to disclose any further info cuz well...hard to explain also la.So,all I can say is that...I'm alright now.I won't torture myself into doing stupid thgs and all that.I know that he reads my status and looks at my photos.. ehem....and I have asked a GUY pal to interpret what guys think and all that.The answer?Only I know.

I won't jump into conclusion yet but I know I still have my result to worry about.These things still can take time.Oh!And having nose bleed 3 days straight is one hell of a ride ald!For those who duno why I nose bleed all the time?U better go check my previous post! XD

OH!And I just saw some people commented on my post!OMG!SO late baru c tiok!Pai seh ya! ^^ I ald reply and will check ur out also!

Alrite..CIAO!

Signs.

2011-07-10T01:14:00.001+08:00

Alrite...I duno why but I've been addicted to horoscope lately.So then...I found out something....

I'm a Cancer so that means...

Cancer: June 21 – July 22 Symbol: Crab
This is the most emotional and intuitive sign of the zodiac. Your top priority is family. You are ruled by the moon and as such, your mood changes. When things get too much for you, you retreat into your protective shell. You do not like change.

**I LOVE CHANGE LAH!!!!

Perfect match: Scorpio, Pisces
Almost perfect: Taurus, Virgo
Opposites attract: Sagittarius, Aquarius
Signs to learn from: Gemini, Leo
Not your destiny: Aries, Libra

Ok...SO He is an Aqua...we are OPPOSITES!OMFG!

But I ald know that Scorpio is not my match cuz well...my ex is a scorpio..

So....erm...My best match is Pieces.WOW!My bro is one!But he isn't so...idk...GOOD with me.But he is very kind and very passionate at what he is doing...

and then I saw...

Aquarius: January 20 – February 18 Symbol: Water Bearer
You need people around you even though you can sometimes be rebellious. Intelligent and interested in progressive thought. You have a plethora of friends but have a tendency to not get too intimate with any one person.

**DAMN RITE!

Perfect match: Gemini, Libra
Almost perfect: Aries, Sagittarius
Opposites attract: Cancer, Virgo
Signs to learn from: Capricorn, Pisces
Not your destiny: Taurus, Scorpio

Ok yes...opposites attract!haha!

CIAO BABES AND GENTS!GUD DAY! =D

The Burfdei Gurl!

2011-07-07T14:07:00.000+08:00

Ah...Here goes my pictures...

This is ehm..the 1st time I took picz with my eye liner on.hehe..

I look better wifout specs eh? =P

Domo hates me! XD

camwhoring in ze shop.

Bro and me.

My Domo is being sarcastic. XD

rite b4 d dinner,me n my bro took a pic.

ah...there we go..

gramps!

there is something about this picture.I can't quite put my fingers on it.

From my Cuzzie!YUKO dahlings! XD

She gave me this! ^^

yeah huh!

whoops!not ready...

candid moments...enjoy! ^^

my big bro had to lie down and smell his...nvm.. XD

it was a great bday.no doubt!the cake was AWESOME!My coussie had bought me a cake actually.But it was ICE-CREAMED!So..they had to take it back so I let them have it. =)

So then when dad picked me from the mall.He terus bring me to the bakery and asked me what cake I wanted!So touched! ^^ I should have picked a bigger cake but good things comes in small packages right? HAHA!

So thanks evry1 for helping me go through my bday!Evry year,my bday always had someone to celebrate with.This year was a bit diff but I liked it. =P To the new frends I've met.Namely Priz and that Tadpole and all my kiddos,I'm glad I found all of u guys!It was just THE RIGHT TIME when I needed u all.Heck!u guys stand as my frend better then my frends here! =P SHHH~

OH!And thks for the fb ppl who wishes me hapi bday!They can't read this but they know I'm wishing them. hehe!

Orite...later I sob in tears again lah!Just grateful that evry1 is with me here.I wouldn't trade anyone of u for the world! XD NOT EVEN JARED!!! XDDDD

Have a great day people!

CIAO!

Go shawty!It's MA Burfdei! XD

2011-07-05T02:01:00.000+08:00

Priz Ice aka Prisca sent me this when I opened my fb page just now.

http://prizice.blogspot.com/2011/07/happy-birthday-mandycandy.html

This is I guess..the best bday present ever!I mean...I've received a lot of gifts..But this one..is THE BEST!Priz,u really touched my heart!I don't think anybody can stand between that!Thank you for making your time to make that post just for me!AWW!Really wana give u a BIG hug rite now!XOXO!!

She made me sob when I saw that!Tears of joy babe! LOL! My Jared Leto wish hasn't come true but this is way better than Jared lah! XD

ok...so I'll post pics for the rest of the day if I can orite?Hope 2ml will be fun!

CIAO! =DDDDDDD

The best things in life.

2011-07-03T21:27:00.000+08:00

As I sit here,I wonder about the good times.Memories.Back then...*OW!* MY TEETH HURTS!WAIT! DAMMIT!

okok...I'm good...

I think about the times when things are still small to me.The world is so big and I'm so small.I feel like a little girl lost in no where and trying to find wadever it is I can hold onto.

So then I find that mistakes make me grow.Trust me.I have done A LOT of stupid thgs in my life!Confess to so many guys that I like them and all that crap.I din know why I even do that!If only I can go to the past and slap myself!But if I were to do that,I would never grow up rite?

SO...when I see people with best buds,I used to get so jealous!how cum they have great frends and I don't!But wad I duno is...those ppl have their stories.Never judge a book by it's cover!

I've been bullied before too.Yes.countless times!Even now!by customers!And again,they made me grow.I have to thank them personally if I could. =)

Enemies?oh yeah...I do have them.But they hate me,I don't hate them.Not anymore.I also learned that your best frend can becum ur worst enemy.I can't do anything to tell them not to hate me right?We make mistakes!And if your FREND can't see that then they r really not ur frend.So,pick them carefully.

Love?ahhh..same old topic...crushes crushed!had loads of them.Only 1 manage to love me back.hehe.But that was the past....the stupid past.I find that after u got out of a relationship,u tend to do a lot of thgs u wud never do.try thgs u wud nvr try.That is a gud thg but it's hard for a heart to heal.really hard.Luckily,we tend to always find our way into the light.We always do.So,don't mind shedding a tear until u've reach where u have to go. =) Believe is the word.

i guess the best thgs in life r those that goes thru hardships.the harder we go thru life,the better the view of our future.ain't that right?

So never stop believing what's out there. =D

CIAO!

Everything comes naturally.

2011-07-03T00:20:00.000+08:00

ok.so what if I do like him?I don't care anymore.There is a reason why he is in my life.There is a reason why I meet these people.There are also reasons why some people leave me.I understand.So I just let it go naturally.

This time,I won't force myself in any more.It's no use.I am going to face it.I am not going to hide anymore.

I do sometimes miss my old buds.They were there for me when I needed them.I hope I was when they needed me.I can tell u sth.Honestly,I am bad at making friends.They leave me too soon.I even wonder why people even want to be my friend!Oh well...

Tell you what.We all have imperfections.We are not going to show them unless we know them.So if ur frends ever show them to you,It means u r trusted.U belong.Me?I lost them.I still hope some of them can see the real me.I am not who they think I am.

I'm glad I made pretty cool frends in fb la.They really stood by me.Like Priz Ice aka Prisca. =)

ok...gonna rub my eyeliner off...I look so emo! XDDD

CIAO!

I can't....this is harder than I thought.

2011-07-02T00:13:00.000+08:00

why is the internet even invented anyway?

why did he have to talk to me all the time when I didn't answer him?

why oh why is he so far away....

fuck crush!

CIAO!

Hands Down the table!

2011-06-30T23:16:00.000+08:00

I have reached my decision.

No more crap!

This crap shall be over!

And so..I have decided to give up on this...

Although it may be stupid.

But I have to try...

God Bless me!

COLD!

2011-06-30T22:32:00.002+08:00

Lalalalalalalala~~~

I'm not oh fucking KAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!

this song is going to get stuck in my head...

2011-06-30T01:58:00.002+08:00

Dreams, that's where I have to go
to see your beautiful face anymore
I stare at a picture of you and listen to the radio
Hope, hope there's a conversation
where we both admit we had it good but
until then it's alienation, I know, that much is understood
And I realize

CHORUS:
If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what they say, I'm not over you
Not over you

Damn, damn girl you do it well
And I thought you were innocent
You took this heart and put it through hell
But still you're magnificent
I I'm a boomerang doesn't matter how you throw me
Turn around and I'm back in the game
Even better than the old me
But I'm not even close without you

CHORUS:
If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what I say, I'm not over you

BRIDGE:
And if I had the chance to renew
You know there isn't a thing I wouldn't do
I could get back on the right track
But only if you'd be convinced
So until then

CHORUS:
If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what I say, I'm not over you
Not over you
Not over you
Not over you

2011-06-30T01:55:00.001+08:00

He wrote this: If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine,I would lie and say that you're not on my mind!

It's from Gavin Degraw.

So...is it...erm....i duno?PRIZ ICE!HELP ME!

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

ze hair of ze zenturyzzzz!

2011-06-29T23:26:00.000+08:00

omg...do i look like a nerd???DO I???? XDDDDDDDDDDD

God I miss you!

2011-06-29T22:45:00.000+08:00

It's getting HOTTER!!!

AGAIN!!!

OMG!!!

ok...I won't go for details.

but he chat with me!!!!

YEAH!!!

OMG!SO HAPI NOW!!!

LALALALA~~~

And to think I call myself Mandy LALA??!!! XDDD

Priz Ice calls me LALAT!

And then now he calls me that too...

Oh who cares?!

God must have spent a little more time on you?

WOOPHIEEE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I just hope it doesnt go cold again.

Well,if it doesnt last,then the colder the better la...

OH IDK!

AHHHHH!!!

well played.

2011-06-28T14:20:00.000+08:00

it was hot and then it got cold.

and now?

neutral.

funny eh?

how did we turned out this way?

Maybe cuz this is the most beautiful pain in the world.

You just have to love how it hurts.

Don't do this to me.

2011-06-27T13:58:00.000+08:00

Seriously.When I close my eyes.It's you.

When I watch a movie,it's you!

When I hear a song,it's you!

Why are u evrywhr when U are not even HERE??!!!

UGHH!!!

Really.I don't want the cold shoulder anymore.Can u just please tell me wad the hell is wrong?I don't need this in my life!!!!

Going the distance and the Back-up Plan.

2011-06-26T14:35:00.000+08:00

Watched that ytd and i guess...Life is just...very...complicated.We have to choose.

And when we choose,we tend to not notice the thgs we really want over love.Silly eh?

Ok...I better go now...

Vboy is knocking on my door!BLAH!

CIAO!

Attention.

2011-06-25T14:19:00.000+08:00

When I walk pass Spring yesterday,loads of boys were...u know what they do when they see gals rite?

And I love the attention.I really do.But the only thing that is missing is my heart!

U stole my fucking heart!

DAMN U!

I give up.

2011-06-25T01:08:00.000+08:00

all that wishful thinking?It's enough!

I always recall back the last time u treated me.

u're so damn nice to me.

so sincere.

honest.

and now?

I just don't know what to say!

I guess I just think too much.

Oh well....

This is me.Giving up on a crush.

The end.

CIAO!

what can I do?

2011-06-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

He is taking his exam.

And me?

I'm going to a super crazy trip with my couzzie 2ml!!!

So excited!

I can't shleep!

Well,it could also be bcuz of...ehem..u knw...

N then of course...This is helping me becuz I won't stick myself to the pc screen!

N ....he is having his exams...so I won't bother with him first.

I really don't want to like him....

but how come when I say that,I think of all the thgs he did....N then I fall back again...

this is stupid.

Love is stupid!

Crush is even more stupid!

EVRYTHG IS STUPID!!!!!!

AHHHHHH!!!!

okok....so 2ml.......I will be fucking lose control all over Spirng!

Yes!KBOX ,MBO, shop,eat sushi!ALL DAY LONG!

but 1 day only....

i must cherish the moment!!!

CIAO!

I searched kissing and found....

2011-06-23T14:57:00.001+08:00

Kiss
To dream of a kiss, denotes love, affection, tranquility, harmony, and contentment. In particular, if you are dreaming of your first kiss, then it may just be the anticipation of experiencing your actual first kiss. This dream is also symbolic of young love and fresh romance. Perhaps the dream is telling you that you need to inject some more romance into your waking relationship. To see others kissing in your dream, suggest that you are too involved in someone else's personal lives and relationship. You need to give them some space. If the dream ends just about as you are about to kiss someone, then it indicates that you are unsure of how he or she really feels about you. You are looking for some sort of relationship with this person but you are not sure about how to go about achieving it. If you are heterosexual and you dream that you are kissing someone of the same sex, then it represents self-acceptance. You are acknowledging the feminine or masculine side.

To dream that you are kissing someone's hand, signifies respect. If you are kissing someone's foot, then it denotes respect and humility. If you are kissing someone on the cheek or someone is kissing you on the cheek, then it signifies admiration, courtesy, reverence, friendship or respect. To dream that you are kissing someone on the neck or vice versa, refers to uninhibited passion and lust. You are giving into your physical desires.

To dream that you are kissing someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend, indicates your wish to be in a relationship and to experience the energy of love. Perhaps you are somewhat jealous. You may be sexually acting out and desire to awaken your passion. Alternatively, the dream indicates a lack of integrity on your part.�If you are kissing a close friend, then it represents your respect and adoration for your friend. It may or may not signify a romantic interest for him or her. If you dream that you are kissing a stranger, then it represents acknowledgement and acceptance of the repressed aspect of yourself. If you are kissed by a stranger, then your dream is one of self-discovery. You need to get more acquainted with some aspect of yourself.

To dream of kissing an enemy, signifies betrayal, hostility, or reconciliation with an angry friend. Consider also the saying "this kiss of death". If someone tries to kiss you against your will, then it means that someone is shoving their ideas, beliefs and opinions in your face. He or she is forcing you to do something that you do not really want to do. This dream may also mean that you are refusing to accept some repressed aspect of yourself. If you are kissed by a stranger, then your dream is one of self-discovery. You need to get more acquainted with some aspect of yourself.

Dreamt.

2011-06-23T14:35:00.000+08:00

Had a nap.

Had a dream.

We kissed!

WTF!

Ok...the dream goes like this...

He's at my school.He sat next to me in school!So weird...

ok...so then we din really talk cuz I was shy...uh-huh...

so 1 day when he left for recess,me n my friends were talking about...TIE?!

Anyway,when he came back,my place is seated by sum1.So I sat a place in front of him.

All of a sudden,that person left my place and he went on to sit at my place!

So then I turned my chair facing towards him and asked him why he had a weird piano with him.

he came to my side and got real close to me.

I keep asking him abt the piano and he keeps looking at me.

he missed the kiss the first time which made me laughed like a freak but then he grab my face and just give me a full load!

WTF!

I cannot believe my dream!

I even wake up saying WTF! XDDD

I mean...it's nice but....wow!Too fast? XDDD

oh!and I dreamt some more stuff...I searched on what it means...

Grasshopper
To see a grasshopper in your dream, symbolizes freedom, independence or spiritual enlightenment. Alternatively, it indicates your inability to settle down or commit to a decision.

Bamboo
To see bamboo in your dream, symbolizes trustworthiness, strength and resilience. You are able to easily bounce back from setbacks and disappointments in your life. Alternatively, it refers to strong ties/bonds and fair dealings.

Uniform
To dream that you or someone is in uniform, signifies your need to belong or be part of a group. Alternatively, the dream may suggest that you are conforming too much to the beliefs of others. Learn to think for yourself and be your own person.

In particular, to see a nurse's uniform in your dream, indicates cleanliness, compassion, and properness. To see a school uniform, means how you are identifying with your school and your classmates. It may bring attention to some issue you have at school. To see people in strange uniforms, signify disruption and chaos.

wana know which website?? here's the link..http://www.dreammoods.com/

just type on the side that says 'interpret' and there u go! =) It's fun actually but sometimes not good.So careful ya!

CIAO!

I can love but I can't hate.

2011-06-22T00:56:00.000+08:00

Is he mad at me now?Why is he treating me like this?He likes my post and he tweets me.But there is no emotion!WHY GOD?!

Ok...I'll give him time...ok?Time will tell...Time WILL TELL!

I want to go to the movies so bad!

CIAO!

this is going to be complicated.

2011-06-20T20:40:00.000+08:00

I never wanted to have a friend like him.

He twirls around with my life.

He plays around with me like I'm a puppet.Not a Muppet mind you! XD

I can't take this.

I need to break!

Leisure.

2011-06-19T01:00:00.000+08:00

This is like so yesterday already!But hey...better late than never eh? XD

Enjoy! =P

I love GARFIELD!

I used to buy his comics!

I have the full volume which is only 4 books!

LMFAO!

This is Aj on the left and Teresa on the right.

yeah.we went to karaoke!

on an AFTERNOON!!!!

Meet Adam.Only form 2 i think?But he rocks! ^^

there's us!

She sang the whole day! XD

And I just kept doing that.... =P

WHOOPS!

Mine and Adam's KFC FIASCO!

LOVE!

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

I seriously hate this picture cuz I act so cute like that!UGH!

and I look FAT! ><

Fooling around part 1

part 2

thaaaat's much betta!

he is CRAZY!

cameo!

he doesnt want to talk to me....

so I take picz alone lorh...

The middle finger or the index finger?U choose!

huh?

Aj's rocking hairstyle!

part 3

part4

part5

part6

I have no idea wad the F I was doing.. XD

Padungan!

part7

UR ARMPIT STINKS! XDDD

OH!The sushi restaurant owner has the same name as him! XD

Mum's fruit basket.Yeah.She did all that!

Nice eh??

fooling around at my haus again! XD

OMG!This is the best dessert I have ever eaten!

It's ice-cream with strawberry dressing!

AWESOMENESS!!!!!!

I was in my pj's ady.

I din feel like sleeping so I go camwhore!

see my Garfield shirt?

Was reading and jamming with my mp3 all night!

this is nice...thr's 3 parts.It links! =P

<3 it! =)

yes...Mama needs her sugar! XDDD

OH GAWD!My bro just laughed at me when he saw me typing the picture above! XD

Oh well... That's just me! =P

Camwhore season...OVER!

CIAO! ;P

the edge!

2011-06-19T00:29:00.000+08:00

well,since you're not in the social world.I might as well have some fun.So....I went out with mutti and vatti and my brothers to spend some QUALITY TIME!

Indeed.It was fun!We haven't done this in a while.It's pretty fun though. =)

We went to Boulevyard and yes,it's already 9:30pm then.We just walk around and bought a heater.Mum saw FEMALE and I decided to buy it cuz...it 's nice wad~!Plus,I can read it in the loo! =P

Oh!And mum knows about him already.They say I am in love with him.Took mum one look at me to know it!DAMN!Oh well...who cares?I just know that it's gonna be impossible anyway.I mean,we're too far away!Besides,it's just a silly crush!Won't last anyway...right? =)

After that,we went for supper at the night market.AWESOME food! =P It's crowded though but without the crowd,it could seem lonely.

And so here I am.Tapping on the keyboard.Visiting his page AGAIN!haha!How stupid of me.But tell u what.He is the 1st crush that is so approachable to me.Like he did a lot thgs without me telling him to.Then again,maybe he wants to boost his confidence only??Oh who knows!It's all God's plan!

Whenever I try to avoid him.He keeps annoy me till I can't stop laughing!I love a sense if humor!However,when he gets mad...uff!I hate it!he takes it out on me!

okok...this is getting really boring and too far!LOL!I'm gonna post some pics on the next post!Be sure to check it out! =P

CIAO!

I found a boy.

2011-06-17T00:48:00.000+08:00

no.this is not about him.LOL!

This is actually about the guy that...well,let's just call it Puppy Love ok?

I got flashbacks when I saw the videos from S Club 7 and it reminds me of him.So yeah.This post is all about him.A tribute to him for being ..erm...nice?haha!

We met in tuition.We never talked.Not until when he was in another tuition with me.From then on,he started noticing me.

So,one time.My tuition teacher placed us to sit together.We were so nervous then.

One time,he forgot to bring his pencils.So I borrowed him mine.It was a pain in the ass sitting next to him actually becuz..let's just say he isn't that bright in his studies.He only likes to sing.And that's how S Club 7 reminds me of him.Bcuz when I sat next to him,he will sing all those S club songs!It's annoying at 1st but guess wad I did after that?

I SANG WITH HIM! XD

When the teacher notice that we got so much closer.She split us.

After that,we only talked when we waited for our cars.

A lot of thgs happen in between lah!Many dramas!A lot of chasing and jealousy and all that.LOL!

We didn't end up 2gether of course!But I will always see him.Once a year only.Sad eh? XD

But well,that's life.Don't miss out the chances to talk to sum1 or be with them until it's too late. =)

Such a very nostalgic post! haha!

orite.gotta go check out on Nick's post.He tagged me sth...gotta go watch it now.

CIAO! =)

lalalalalala~

2011-06-16T01:05:00.001+08:00

u have gone out of my...erm...HAIR?!

lalalalala~

ooooooooo.....cookies.....

CIAO!

i have said enough.

2011-06-15T23:43:00.001+08:00

this crush has been crushed.

the end.

and that's why I smile.

2011-06-15T14:12:00.001+08:00

let's pretend we never met.

let's pretend I never talked to you.

let's pretend u never make me laughed like this.

let's pretend I never spend all that time to chat with you.

let's pretend I'm dead.

let's pretend...

Disturb.

2011-06-15T01:54:00.000+08:00

After all that is said and done.U just have to put it out on me do you?NO!I don't FUCKING care if u read this or not!I had just about enough of you!

I can't concentrate when I pray.When I closed my eyes,u tweets appear in my face and that u din want to tell me what happen?Hey,am I your friend?Or am I just a tool for you to use?U think U can just walk around me whenever you want??

Why did u even bother about me?U can know every single thing about me and I can't know a damn thing about you!I don't know who u really are.I don't know who your parents are.I don't know why did u even want to add me in the 1st place!I never know the reason and I am sick and tired of u being mad at me whenever u want and I can't do that!

My mum told me never to trust you!I didn't believe her becuz all those times I wanted to proof to her that I am not wrong!

But I guess...I am wrong.

fuck myself for being so down on myself becuz of u.

no.I won't be mean to you.I don't care anymore.

leave me alone.

ciao....

=)

2011-06-14T23:32:00.000+08:00

i hate this.now i got pull back in again...kinda reminds me of that song called,"Stuck on you" XD

Life is weird.

I want Pizza but I want McD.

I hate that laptop from WWE that keeps beeping!UGH!

CIAO! =D

No..I don't mean it sorry!

2011-06-14T22:38:00.001+08:00

I didn't mean it say that F word.I'm sorry.I just feel like the world is so unfair sometimes!like how can he just F off like that?That is just frankly BULLSHYT!